sigh...:(

cmula nung umalis n cla
naiba n takbo ng buhay ko
dati pa-easy easy lng ako
ngaun d na pwede
i have to stand on my own
i have to do everything that
i do not normally do
when they're still here
mahirap pero i have to be optimistic
about everything
maybe it would be better if i just
think of it as a challenge
kc kung iisipin ko n mahirap,
na nakakasawa, ako lng din
ang mahihirapan tlg..
ako lng din ang kawawa..
basta gagawin ko n lng ang
dapat kung gawin
magtiyaga, magtiis, at magdasal
na sana balang araw
matapos n toh
na sana bumalik n ulit sa dati
ang lahat...

in God's time and will...
i know...
everything's gonna be alright...:)

août 20, 2005

august 20, 2005
sabado
3 am
wala na sila...:(
isa sa mga pinakamalungkot
na parte ng buhay ko
ang nangyari sa araw n toh
kung ano man un
sa akin na lng un...
basta malungkot ako ngaun
pero lam ko di kmi pababayaan
ni God...
alam kong lagi lng syang nandyan
para sa amin...
mahal nya kmi at maraming
beses ko ng napatunayan un...

and I Love Him for that...:)

privilege...

Isn't it strange that a gift could be an enemy?
Isn't it wierd that a privilege could feel like a chore?
Maybe it's me but this line isn't going anywhere, maybe if we looked hard enough, we could find a backdoor.

Isn't it strange that the man standing in front of me doesn't have a clue why he's waiting, or what he's waiting for?
Maybe it's me, but I'm sick of wasting energy.
Maybe if I look in my heart I could find that backdoor.

I see you in line,
dragging your feet you have my sympathy.
The day you were born,
you were born free.

That is your privilege.

under my umbrella...

When I close my eyes I can see for miles
There's comfort in my dark seat
And chaos in the aisles
These eyes are not your eyes
And these eyes are not the color thatYour arid eyes might be
No, I was not aroundWhen those eyes of yours decided
soI refuse to kneel before the sights you choose to see
When I close my eyes I remember how to smile
Under my umbrella
I'm and accomplished exile
These eyes are not your eyes
And these eyes are not the color thatYour arid eyes might be
No, I was not around
When those eyes of yours decided
soI refuse to kneel before the sights you choose to see
If this is right,
I'd rather be wrong
If this is sight,
I'd rather be blind...

echo...

kaye hates me more than
she thinks i hate her...
i dont hate her
or does she?
i don't know...
but i am certain
i don't...
maybe we are both facing
some difficulties right now
but then i know we can
surpass this one
but to clear things up
kaye if ever you're to open
this blog i want you to know
that i dont hate you
just like what you think
i do...
i am sad though happy at
the same time that we're
in this situation like we've never
imagine we could be...
coz i think a little twist
in this friendship is not bad
afterall, i know that we can handle
this and eventually surpass it...
cheers to a whole new level
of our friendship!!!

i love you
dearly....^___^

dearly beloved...

dearly beloved, are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
are we demented?
Or am i disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am i retarded?
Or am i just overjoyed?
Nobody's perfect and i stand accused
for lack of a better word and that's
my best excuse...

bulong...

di ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong
gawin at maramdaman sa mga oras n toh
naguguluhan ako...
pero isa lng ang alam ko...

MISS NA KITA!

sana alam mo kung
ano ang nararamdaman
ko sa bawat araw n lumilipas
ang hirap pla tlg ng ganito
hinahanap-hanap mo plagi
ang taong nagpapasaya syo
pero di mo nmn Makita
gusto mo syang makausap
pero pag nandyan di mo
nmn matignan sa mga mata

kelan kya mtatapos ang paghihintay ko?
kelan mo kya maririnig at malalaman
ang mga saloobin ko?
kelan kya darating ung panahon
na makakausap ulit kita
at makakakwentuhan tulad ng dati?
kelan kya un?
darating p kya un?
mauulit p kya?
o hindi n tlg?

sna…sna…sna…

hay buhay…. :(